Not a very happy camper

It has been awhile since my last post... maksu apparently dah clear one of the hurdles of her life, and now is so on holiday mode...as with the rest of her homies! YEAY for them dentists!!...So that left me in a stressed-out state sikit. See, I dh janji ngan my supervisor to send the chapters 2,3,4, to him. Heck I've promised to send him the ENTIRE thing by this Sunday but as you may have guessed, mestilahtak siap lagi...what's bugging me you ask? Nope, refused to go there...my problems are pretty much my problems...so I decided that I am not posting anything until I sent him at least, well, sum'thin...until then...hasta la vista bebeh... (padan muka moi? La Tortura...and Cap'n Jack is riding the waves just 'round da corner)...

Al Fatihah

Yesterday has been unbelievable. Unbelievably hot, unbelievably uplifting as well as unbelievably sad. Pagi morning pg get the check, so finally it is here, uplifting a bit (what with all the 'commitments' an all) but still tak leh clearkan lagi...a bit sad. The saddest part of the day was the passing of my dearest cousin, Cik Asem as he was fondly called. He was the hubby of my own cousin, Kak Ipah. Kak Ipah saw all of us growing up, and we were very close as she lived with our family almost half of her adult life. When I got the call from Adi at 1330 yesterday, I was mildly surprised. I know all along that Cik Asem was warded kat HKL, so I thought that there are somethings that I could for them, from my end at least. I was not prepared however to hear that 'babah dah tak ada". How surreal is that? How sorry I was now that I had been putting off my visit to the hospital..? He has a heart condition, yes, but he was warded for an ortho complications. There are so many things....that we wish, but it does not matter now... He has got the long rest he so deserved at long last, no more pain. To Kak Ipah, Adi, Diyad, Raikhan, Kak Aini, & Azian as well as the rest of us, the ones who were left behind are those hurting the most. Tiadalah yang lebih cantik kecuali sabar dan bertawakkal. This only reminds us that we have purposes to be fulfilled as best as we could before our own time comes. Al-Fatihah untuk Cik Asem. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama roh orang-orang beriman yang lainnya.

Now U See it....

Minggu gaji biasanye ditunggu dengan penuh pengharapan...especially bile gaji bulan Febuari aritu bagi awal..mmg sonok dpt awal tapi ade side effectnye...the stretch is longer or so I thought... so with utmost happynesslah hari gaji disambut. Funnily, ade jugak yang dapat gaji bukan minggu ni, especially private sectors lh kot. Cam mak lang gaji die kalau x 31 aribulan jgn haraplah...evil people!! X baik tau buat orang cam tu...

So ari ni, hari ke 4 gaji, suasana kembali suram, slps hutang 2 individu mahupun organisasi cuba dilangsaikan, harapan dilempar kembali kepada satu tarikh lain, yg mana pada hari itu, gaji bulan April pulak yang dirindui dan ditunggui. Gajilah pengubat luka, satu prasasti bahawa segala usahamu selama ini tidak akan pernah sia-sia. Gaji juga amanah, kayu ukur prestasi diri kita sendiri...are we worth what we are paid. Did you know the word 'salary' originates from when a long time ago, workers are paid in salt, the most valuable commodity masa tu... I can't remember exactly kat mane this tradition start but ...to all workers everywhere, whose faces I saw stuck in jams while driving to and from work...! I salute you!

Orang Baru Orang Lama

Minggu ni I am stuck here, in KL khususnye sbb I promised Soha that I'd do the explorace thingy. The result? Badan sakit, kaki blistered no hadiah mind, cos we came in after fifth so, there....tak masuk dah bende2 camnih. Would not want to go into the gory details of the tasks that we have to complete, a complete waste of time..Nope, I did not enjoy it, save for my lovely team members, sorry kita kalah...I was surprised (?) at how unfit I am...hmmm. Maybe tulah yang dikatakan Orang Lama...

Pak Ngah nyer baby akhirnya decided yang dia nak tenguk the world, the latest edition (and addition) of the Radzi's; Nur Wijdan Ilhami is finally here...Congrats Pak Ngah & Co. on a job well done! As u can see the baby is not at all bothered ngan paparazzi keliling diye, being already born a diva kan? So that's the orang baru part...the food was great jugak over the weekend at Pak Ngah's. Daging Black Pepper is ok. Balik dari Jalan Nong Chik g solat di Masjid depan KISAS tu, the one with very gothic/art-deco inspired archi, Masjid Sultan Suleiman. Mulalah mengimbau kenangan lama as a KIKian/KISASian, it was during my fifth form that KIK was renamed KISAS. It has been fun (although not all of it)...So that is also on the Orang Lama section.

What's weird about me?

Back from a short weekend break, went to Melaka as per opot's blog. I'm just the supir, but all in all a nice drive to and fro....quite relaxing, badan pun tak sakit as per the survey on chi-yan's blog about the level of comfort of carseats...back blogging t'day. Last week cam nak tecabut nyawa buat Chapter 1. Dh antor la dh kat Cikgu, tgh bedebar lak tunggu the reply...Euww!!! So next week akan stress out balik...so, back to the mind boggling thing of what is weird about meself. Not just one, but 6...lagilah susahkan...I'm just as plain as the next gurl..but, as promised here goes...

1. Cannot tahan the smell of cempedak n nangka....takleh langsung...kalau simpan dalam fridge and all the other food and water beginning to smell of it? Absolute no-no !! Cempedak goreng? Even worse! So my hubby, the lover of all things chempedak, will have to goreng sendiri or get warong-bought, ain't getting it from moi!

2. Share the same amazement with opot (can we share our weirdness? it's genetic apparently) about having a hard-boiled quail's egg in a laici-kang? Hello! Not masak lemak is it? It IS a refreshing drink? tsk tsk

3. Almost all my teeth is still milk teeth, except for some molars or something, and I am quite ancient by the Gregorian count. This one kene tanyer Mak Su (BTW, she hates my dentition) ... One dentist told me that this is 1:20, not really sure about that...but I suppose that is why I do not look ancient!!! NOT!

4. I do not do this as often now (because I usually stop at one, wow) but I used to wash my hands again before going for the second helping....is that supernatural? Mesti, kalau tak tak sedap...

5. I hate butterflies and big, giant moths!! They are so thin I could crush them, but I could not sbb geli...that is why I hate them...

6. I could not plant any trees to save my life... somebody kate (exactly whom, can't recall) tangan panas...nanti pegang pokok, pokok mati...so, although gardening is quite nice an idea...the best I could do is siram pokok, and beli pokok siap kot...BTW chiyan...nice looking orchidae...

So there... I now tag anyone who read this...

Ibarat sirih pulang ke gagang...

Minggu ni ade kejutan-kejutan kecil... mak ngah was supposed to deliver another addition to the family, apparently the person decided that now is not the time... 1 tekejut. I went to the office, by myself, trying to write the phd thingy on a Saturday! 2 tekejut. I was not able to do more than 3 pages due to my very rusty thinking machine! 3 tekejut...and we went to the next door neighbour punyer engagement do.. 4 tekejut....yang ni, nothing major, it's just that it was quite a private affair, and we were quite honoured sbb dijemput, plus the fact that I hardly know anyone...but there is no better time to start silaturrahim than now...kan? How many times have we broken silaturrahim than renewing old ones or even build new ones? I know of a few broken silaturrahim, but in my defense only due to temporal and spatial difference...but that is too flimsy a defense, even by my very low standard....

Tiada Esok Bagiku

Bad news people!! kene jugak buat phd tu sampai abbis. My wizarding professor have sent me a very angry owl... not a holler yet, but VERY close!! Jadi nampaknya terpaksalah jugak kite teruskan perjuangan ini. Good thing is, I must get this over and done with. Bad thing, I have absolutely NO idea camaner nak abbiskan.....berniat jugak di dalam hati biarlah raya tahun ni dah selesai everything to do with phd ni...no more worries and anguish. Siksa betul, especially bila dah balik dengan segala beban tugas kerjaya, keluarga. Histeris gue! Janji nk bagi the bulk next week. NEXT WEEK? mmg la cam tak waras jee kan, but I have to push my sorry a** jugak, si pemalas ni kan? Let's do it then! To infinity and beyond!!!!!

The Year of the Golden Pumbaa

A long holiday gone, tak de rase pun holiday. I was in front of the idiot box sampai nak migrain. why do I subject myself to such torture? Tak taulah eden...bosan kot, banyak khoje cam opot tapi idiot writer's bloc pulak, may b tak macam opot. Biasanya holidays kat Malaysia is always about people regrouping at home, so that also meant yang jalan akan sesak. i personally have a mixed feeling about traffic jam. On one hand, mmg la sakit every part of the body bila dikenangkan nak mengharung nye tuh...on the other hand, itulah tanda everyone of us is actually thinking about the same thing, to spend the holidays with the people we care about. So satu arah tujuan, at roughly the same time. does great minds think alike then? Apa pun it is still perlumbaan tetikus...be safe y'all

Laptop oh laptop

Baru tau frm my student, my laptop lepas CNY baru pulih dari demam virus. Hidup takde laptop sekarang ni dah macam pelik. Many of us guna laptop like some kind of extended nyawa, especially students lah, duit PTPTN la apa lagi...kan? Laptop lak kemain murah sekarang ni, compared to say 10 years ago. That time I remember, satu laptop siap ngan docking sekali tau baper adik-adik? RM10,000 maa! Sekarang 10 ribu dah boleh beli 8 laptop dah...OTT sikit. Anyway...my point really is about the interdependency ngan all things hi-tech ni. Dulu kita susah nk terima, but once dah terima dah rase tak boleh nak bercerai...cth cam hp la sekarang. Susahnya you commit your life to a machine... strange but that is how things are done now, ur responsibility in the hands of some entity... yang u can't see, feel, smell...On that note, good luck y'all

Lessons in Parenting

Splitting headache today. Dissapointed about a lot of things, in particular myself. Mmg lah tak de any manual on how to be an excellent parent kan? Selalunya semua trial and error, dan doa dan tawakkal. Must do a lot more of the latter twos, and hoped for the best. Kalau tak de masalah life ni pelik pulak, kiter g cari masalah sendiri. Bila ada masalah pulak, kalau banyak sangat takut tak mampu. D cni inginlah kiranya saya mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih kepada semua yang telah hadir di dalam hidup saya memberi sokongan, terutama my immediate clan, my fwens, especially jugak to my husband, who had been quite a punching bag for me... I will try kurangkan the blow... someone said to me once, "life sucks n then u die"...not a nice thot. Semoga Allah merahmati perjuangan hidup kita umat Nabi Muhammad di mana jua anda berada....

Minggu ke 7

Ada lagi 15 minit before kelas commence. So saja jalan2 tgk jedi masters yang lain di alam siber. Chi Yan g naik mata-mata during the weekend, hmm that wd be fun... dh lame x g jalan 2 kat kl or sumwhere yg dekat...x actually tgk surroundings n appreciate it, kalau ikut that definition ambah hari2 tgk very nice views kat kebun die kat bawah sana tuh.. We should actually, tgk dan selami persekitaran, sementara masih ada that is. Saja bubuh gambo ct, mlm tadi tgk sikit that Genting do, tekejut tgk ct dh gemuk but happy... semangat gitu.. Other than that, cbuk nk siapkan exam question, finally switch off the laptop kul 12.30, bangun balik pukul 4.30, so I am understandably cranky today...Nothing clever to say today...in my mind, the sheeps are preparing to jump over the white picket fence.., must....hold....on....

The Last Day of the First Month of the Year

Hari yang penat, what day wasn't? Pagi pegi hantar some borang kat putrajaya for sumone, kelas at 2-5. 2 klas sebenarnya. I always promised myself yang I'd bawak a bottle of mineral water to class, tapi selalu lupa. My hubby just got interesting news, not that itu ada kaitan dengan my posts today.

I had an sms from an old, dear friend, Muria who is in SP right now. That was a pleasant surprise because the last I heard about her was that dia kat Sarawak, Kota Samarahan. Dah more than a decade tak jumpa...but at least SP is more manageable than KS, for me to drive that is. The point that I am trying to make is this, kita ni hidup by some sort of time-markers. Muria represented one time-mark. The time I had during Muria-time back in my college days was one of the most laid-back, stress-free, funny time in my life. I am old enough to remember it, compared to say events when I was in Standard 4? It was tough, life as a student...but it was more simple. My worries were how many classes I missed, where to get the notes from the classes I missed, what's for lunch...do I have money for lunch...or something similarly mundane. Now, well now is a different story. It has it's own perks but it has gotten more intricate...I am happy as it were, I do not want to turn back time. It is just nostalgia, I suppose..like when you chanced upon an old photo that brought smile to your heart, or a plaque that thanked you for your participation in an event that seemed so grand at that time but a little weird now...All in all, those were happy thots. I am blessed that I have all these memories with me..and I'd like to thank all my friends where ever you are...for helping me make all those memories. This one goes to you too Rezza in Kuala Selangor...see in my lower secondary school, a boarding type, they would have two people sharing a double-decker bed, Rezza was my double-decker bed pal.., my first encounter of lower secondary friendship. It has been fun..

The Great Depression - Episode II - A New Beginning

Selamat Tahun Baru, ini yang sebetulnya tahun baru kan? So what happened yea on the weekend...g umah abang li kek Rombau, ada kenduri Aqiqah, quite fun sbb food is great... A pleasure indeed, pastu balik...malam antar opot balik kg. baru, the next day monday, ancaq tak sekolah...cuti awal muharram katanyer, but started early jugak, klas at 8.00? nk clock in lagi, let's not go there, for some reason terasa sangat penat. Ari ni was planning to abiskan that chapter I was well under way yesterday... still feel depressed, I know the reason, must do sumthing 'bout it...must...do...sum'n... Insya Allah, Tahun Baru akan membawa vista yang lebih segar, moga-moga dimudahkan oleh Allah s.w.t. segala urusan dunia & akhirat kami umat muslimin di Tanah Melayu ini

The Great Depression

Just got back from a bengkel kat Saujana Subang...am sorely reminded of the fact that I still have that very heavy axe hovering over my head...ya, benar u guessed it, my PhD. When, oh when...I whine yet again...no go there sista, not when u are being such a lazy a** and not producing, surely...to this yun will definitely add ' I don care mate!' ala - Catherine Tate!

So caner nk buat I ask? ChiYan is on the right track there...I pray she will continue to be... as for myself, Patsy of AbFab would advise, sagely, 'you 'ave got to get your life back, dahling!'..is there any point at all of disagreeing wit her? None, absolutely...and none must I have...